IT'S A THROWBACK THURSDAY YA'LL!!!
Each month, within a week that I receive my iPsy bag, I compose a post about basically my first impressions of the products. About a month later, I do another post, sort of like an update/review type thing. Here I have seven posts on my iPsy bags, from December to June and four updates from February to May. Have you checked out any of them yet? If you haven't, I have conveniently provided the links down below. Check them out!
My July bag will arrive within a few days so please expect a a post on that within a few weeks. I also have my June bag update I will post within this week. In the mean time, give these bags a look.
- Swatches from Left to Right: Eyetini Cream Shadow + Base in Ambrosia, Pop Beauty Plump Pout Mini in Peony Petal, City Color Be Matte Blush in Fresh Melon
Thank you for visiting and thanks for reading all! Come back soon. :)
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THROWBACK K-POP SONG(s)
Wheesung Edition
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Ticking Time Bomb
Maybe it's the fact that one of my high school friend recently got married; she now joins the married group which contains most of our graduating class. The ones that are left are either dating, engaged or a parent. Which leaves me, still a loner. Haha. I don't hate the fact that I'm single, I just dislike the idea that I am still living the single life if that makes any sense. I have been living fine being a single, happily enjoying life. It's just until recently that I felt like I've hit a barrier and moving no where, making no progress, which admittedly put me somewhat in a slump. If I wasn't so family oriented, I probably wouldn't care too much but it's the fact that I am Asian whose parents still instill traditional values. It's not like they're forcing me to get married right away or forcing me on set up blind dates; they're just in their own way guilt tripping me. Randomly dropping a "Friends my age are already grandparents.. wonder when that will be me" or "Wishing I have a grandchild to play with right now"... just those comments. The fact that my parents are still very traditional, they still worry about me growing old by myself. They're not big on the whole idea of living the bachorlette life for the rest of my life. They prefer me find a nice man, marry him and grow a family before they pass so I'll have someone to lean on. I know it's out of love but at the moment, I sometimes cannot help but cry because what they want, I don't think I can succeed, it's not within my jurisdiction.
There's a Vietnamese saying that goes, "Having a grown daughter at home is like having a ticking time bomb", needless to say, I have been referred to as a ticking time bomb by all of my relatives. They mean no harm by it, it comes from love I guess. At 24 though, I guess I just can't help but take it kinda offensive. I can't blame anyone but myself though so..
I'm hoping and pray hard every night that it'll be my turn soon. But hoping, wishing, dreaming, praying for it won't get me married, doing something about it will. But..well.. it's just, I can't anymore. One, there's no one compatible around me and two, I don't have the nerves to do anything about it. Haha...problematic much? I've slowly accepted the sad reality that I will grow old myself, now if only I can prepare my family for that mentality also, that'll be great.
Then again, with all the babies, toddlers and kids surrounding me, I just can't help but wanting kids of my own. If it's anything I'll regret from growing old single, it'll be having children. I've been caring for and been around kids at an early age, I've always dreamt of having my own kids, being a mother. Sigh... It's quite a dilemma.
WHAT TO DO?!? What to do?...
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